Today is another one of those days where i just feel like sleeping. Actually, that’s all i’ve felt like doing since i’ve returned from my vacation before i even left for my vacation. When i was in Holland, i felt good. I felt healthy for once in my life, even if my never-ending ear problem was bothering me a little. But now that i’m back, i’ve realized that i’m just stuck in a rut and all i want to do is sleep. I haven’t felt good since i’ve returned. I was coughing and sniffling and sneezing last week and now that that’s subsided, my ear is bothering me again and i’m just tired.
Tired of what? I just had a vacation and a weekend! Sometimes i’m just so fed up with myself because i have no reason to be exhausted or be “down in the dumps”. I mean, a couple of things that i’m not particularly happy with have happend lately, but for the most part, things are actually looking up for me and i’m so excited about that. But for some reason i just can’t show it or 100% feel it the way i should. Is something wrong with me? Is this just a stage of my life? Why do i have so many questions about where i’m going in life or what’s happening next? AAAARRRRGGGHHHH! I really do think it’s true that there’s a quarter-life crisis too. I think i’m there and have been there for a while now. When will the answers come? When will everything start to make sense again? When will my feelings return?
What, Sweet World, have you done to get out of a rut or make things better for yourself or find answers? I need some advice!