For the past few days, i’ve been feeling down and yes, i’d have to admit, a little pessimistic, about my job, my photography and just life in general. Even though i have no right, and know it, to feel down because i am blessed with everything i’ve got – my family and friends, my good health, a job (or two) – i still was just down in the dumps.
My job has not been too enjoyable lately. Some of our benefits are being taken away due to hard times. Morale is down and it’s tough. But i guess i am lucky enough to still have a job, even without all the perks. Then i see other photographer’s works and think “Wow, i could never be as good as them. That photo is amazing.” Or my submission will be turned down for one reason or another. Then i start to feel like my photography just isn’t good enough. But i know i’m trying my best and that it’s all a learning process. Of course i can’t be an amazing photographer in one night. That’s just the impatience in me wanting to be.
I do have my accomplishments that i’m so happy with and did get a few emails this morning regarding my photography that made me stoked (more on that later)! But even if i didn’t, i’d still keep going because photography is what makes me smile and is what keeps me sane through the hard times. It’s my outlet – viewers or no viewers.
Also in my inbox was an email from my Mom. It was a quote from a book she has that’s called A Blue Mountain Arts Collection. And it couldn’t be more perfect in relating to my now.
“Simplifying is not necessarily about getting rid of everthing we’ve
worked so hard for. It’s about making wise choices among the
things we now have to choose from. It’s about recognizing that trying
to have it all has gotten in the way of enjoying the things which do
add to our happiness and well-being. So it’s about deciding what’s
important to us, and gracefully letting go of the things that aren’t.”
So, Sweet World, this post is my heart right now. I didn’t know if i should post it or not but i know that a lot of people are having hard times now, too. You’re not alone and if there’s anything i can do to help, feel free to send me an email. Even chatting for a bit can help. And thanks so much for listening (er, reading) to this not-so-great post and still visiting my blog and shop when you do. It means so much to me! I really do appreciate all my followers!